Sipher

 “Do you have any Cadbury deodorant?” standing on the other side of the counter, I asked sheepishly. She reacted as if she misheard me first. But with the moment, her eyes recognized mine, as if we were friends in person than just sms-pals. Those were the simpler times. We met online, it was like any regular story of a boy who stumbles upon a girl in the online world. Stumble upon, that's how all special relations start. I sit back and stared at the screen for some time. Starring at mobile, I was not sure what to do with the sms I got in reply. That “Hi!” in reply was like someone acknowledged my existence from some other end of this universe. It was a reply to an unassuming ‘Hi’ initiated by me. It took some time to not get surprised every time getting a reply in return to my text messages. Those were the simpler conversations. Each day we come to know a little more about each other, than before. She runs a store with her brother in a distant city, and I was for the first time awa...

At least my eyes were working, on my deathbed. I hid my patient's wristband and was roaming in the hospital corridor. I was bored laying on my bed, waiting for tomorrow. Tomorrow test results will come, and hopefully, then, doctors can figure out why it happened to me. Luckily my roommates joined me after dinner. In two weeks, one of my roommates is about to get married, but for now, we all are amused to be here, sharing a big hospital room with 3 other actual patients. They tease me, pointing at the young beautiful doctor. I could not hide my big smile. I know in few minutes, my friends will leave and fill this boring night, I will have the company of that beauty. She looks like a freshly graduated doctor, whose beautiful eyes treat half of her patients, and make sick their accomplice. I am not sure how my subconscious mind figured it out, but it made me kept my phone on my left side. Like it knew, if it happens again, then it will be the right half of my body that will get paraly...

It was a sudden, unresolved ending to our series of meetings. Just like our marriage. “Where we will sit & discuss?” On the first day, standing on a footpath opposite her apartment, my overwhelmed mind got distracted by such trivial concern. It was our third meeting in three days. Unlike the first two da y s, people around me don’t bother me much now. This time, she was on time. Seems by now, she comfortable sharing that footpath with me, while we trying to untangle ourselves from this mess. But by now, there were more questions, than what I came with. “So, what's now?” I abruptly asked, hoping those hundreds of questions which shooting pain in my head, will vanish away. And unexpectedly, it did. She took a moment and replied, “I don’t know, I need time..” Now, all my questions at that moment become irrelevant; just like me in her life. We hardly spent more than an hour standing there, yet we both were exhausted. It would have been a hectic day in the office for her, just like ...

मृत्यु जीवन के मैं बीच, सोच रहा किसका पक्ष लू ? मृत्यु को सोच मुझे यह लगता, रहूँगा सुखी रहूँगा हँसता ! चिंता से मुक्त डर से दूर, शांत रहेगी मेरी मन-छाया !! पर फिर मुझे जीवन याद दिलाती, जीवन आशा, नही निराशा बतलाती ! मनुष्य होने का गर्व मुझे सिखलाती, पग-पग पर मेरा जोश बढ़ाती !! -- poem by 18 year old me

While sitting at the funeral of my friend's father, a question lingered on my mind. When people leave us forever, do they make us think more about them? And surprisingly, I couldn't put many people in that category. I found we have filled our life with so many things that now people surrounding us don't really leave a forever mark in our day-to-day lives. Except for my eldest maternal uncle, no one came across my mind. He was one who left a legacy behind him. His absence made me think about what he would have done had he been still there in present. And that's how I think one leaves a legacy behind. I am not sure we doing anything like that for people around us. Especially I don't find myself in that place. In fact, I find myself to be someone who could make the least vacuum to fill if leave at the moment from this world. I find people with jolly nature to be most memorable and missed when not around. You guessed it right, I am not one of those.